The winter dilemma

It’s that time of year again. The trees are shedding their golden leaves, the clocks have been put back, geese are flying south; the mornings are crisp and the evenings misty. Thoughts turn to Halloween, Bonfire Night, even, dare I say, Christmas … and the winter bugs have started circulating. Beautiful ... but a harbinger … Continue reading The winter dilemma

Fake it ’til you make it

Someone once told me that, however bad you're feeling, simply smiling will make you feel happier. It’s to do with the physical action of moving your face muscles triggering neural pathways involved in emotion. Or something. I don't know whether it’s scientifically proven, anecdotal, or just bullshit. Anyway, I wonder if the same can be … Continue reading Fake it ’til you make it

In the shadow of Storm Brian

“You on your own then?” (I hasten to add this isn't a #metoo story; this was a genuine expression of surprise/concern). “Well my husband will be here soon [before it bloody rains, selfish ****]. He's cycling from Scotland.” “Ah (eyeing the back end of a five year old that has already spotted a rabbit and … Continue reading In the shadow of Storm Brian

When you love church but your child hates it

The Christian Church is far from perfect. I, and my family, are so lucky to have found in St Anne's a small branch that is growing, thriving, outward-focused, community-centred, accepting, caring and inclusive. We are fortunate that Benjamin, although 'complex,' is not 'challenging.' Yet I am confident that, even if he were noisy, disruptive, violent, … Continue reading When you love church but your child hates it

Brought up short

She pulls her knees right up to her tummy, froggy-style, then kicks them straight again, quickly, over and over, learning the strength in those chubby little thighs. She’ll be rolling over soon. His legs are sometimes floppy, sometimes tense and rigid. He doesn’t move them voluntarily; they will likely never bear his weight. She brings … Continue reading Brought up short

A day in the life

As a change from my standard, introspective musings, I thought I might try and describe a typical day in our household. Of course, there is no typical day. Some days we have appointments for Ben, some days we have playdates for Jackie; some days Ben is sleepy all day, some days he is hungry all … Continue reading A day in the life

Hope and expectation

I think it’s only fair that before I go any further I explain properly why I’m writing this blog. So, I need to take you back to last November. We were 38 weeks into an uneventful pregnancy, excited about the prospect of meeting our second child. Then, at the end of a very long Friday, … Continue reading Hope and expectation