A world without…

A week ago I – along with at least 50% of people on my Twitter feed, it appears – watched Sally Phillips’ emotive documentary A World Without Downs?, exploring the possible outcomes of a new, non-invasive prenatal test (NIPT) for Downs Syndrome. The test allows risk-free, early prenatal diagnosis of almost 100% of Downs Syndrome … Continue reading A world without…

Giving in to hope

My friend has a gorgeous little shop on the High Street selling, among other things, beautiful hand-painted Christmas baubles. The other day, I called in and bought three. One for each of my children. Not just because she told me they were on three-for-two (an offer I suspect is not extended to everyone), but because, … Continue reading Giving in to hope

Thoughts from no-man’s-land

Last week, we had our twenty week scan. Everything looked normal, as we knew it would: Benjamin looked entirely normal at twenty weeks. That didn’t stop me rushing home and googling the baby’s head circumference until I found a graph that put it on the 60th percentile. That’s got to be good, right? So now … Continue reading Thoughts from no-man’s-land

Fortune favours the brave?

In retrospect, I shouldn’t have looked at the twelve-week scan. I shouldn’t have marvelled at its perfect, 6 cm long little body, its stomach, bladder and beating heart, its tiny vertebrae, arms and legs. I shouldn’t have watched it leaping summersaults in my belly. It might then have been easier not to view it as … Continue reading Fortune favours the brave?

Gambling

I haven’t blogged for several weeks. I couldn’t. My mind and body have been consumed with something that I – and my family – weren’t yet ready to share. We have decided to try for another baby. Some might say this was a brave decision. I’m sure others would call it reckless, selfish, ... crazy. … Continue reading Gambling